Monday, January 18, 2010

Couldn't sleep

Rote some poems at 11:00 or something, for lack of being able to sleep:

Ruby
Hollow bleeds a tear so dark only can shadows silver cure

Hair
Snip short, grow long. If curly, want straight, if straight, want curly. If black want blonde, if blonde, want black.

New year, new name.

So, first of all...
Did you know that if you separate out Maddie, It becomes Mad and Die? Not a good omen in a name....

I have never really liked my name much, Madeline just wasn't me. Maddie was better, but... Yeah, Everyone joked about my temper and my name "Maddie, as in MADdie" And so I was thinking about it one day and, ta da! It dawned on me. I thought, what else can you make out of my name... well yahoo! My name is mad and die! Yay! not.... But even before making that discovery I had played with the idea of changing my name, Madeline didn't fit me, and Maddie was okay, (before i thought of the mad and die thing).

The candidates were stuff like:
Rain (I love, love, love cloudy gray wet weather)
Mist
Clair
And some other stuff...

***CAUTION:*** there is a long story and a short story and a very short story here*** PLEASE READ ACCORDING TO ATTENTION SPAN***

Not in a nutshell(Advised for those of you with attention spans 5+ mintutes long):
So late last night, me and mom were talking about names, we talked about Clair, being my middle name, mist, rain... and none of these seemed like me.
So anyway, we get to talking about names, like the color of the name ( I know, you're thinkin' Whuttt??? But anyways,basically: A=yellow B=red C=light blue, ETC. So for example, F=Orange, And so Fiona=Orange, M was always red, and I never saw myself as a red,orange,yellow or other bright sort of color, more like a blueish-gray. So I thought of the letters that are that color to me, and unfortunately, none are. However hope wasn't lost because U and X fairly close, as U shifted from tan to grey and maybe white sometimes, X was more black, but might work as a grey.) So I said U and X are the closest, and we think of U names and X names.. But, to make a long story short, The first names I think of are Xol and Urmila, at first I like Xol more, but as I think about Urmila and turn it over in my head I start to like it more (and for some odd reason it makes me think of herbs)


In a nutshell (Advised for those of you with attention spans 15-30 seconds long):
So, after much thinking,I have changed my name from Madeline to Urmila because Urmila starts with U witch is the color gray, and sometimes tan (See above post) and, for some reason, makes me thing of herbs.


In a grain of sand (Advised for those with attention spans 1-3 seconds long:
I have changed my name to Urmila.

However, after googling Urmila, it is a famous asian actress's name! SOB,I WANTED A UNIQUE NAME NONE HAD!!!! Oh well :( at least Urmila Sulivan Sedam isn't taken... Or is it??? o.O
*Googles* "Nope! Ha >:D"